miss u maa in this silence OF NIGHT

ITS 1:00 AM IN THE MORNING and i am still with this desktop.still dont feel like going to bed.

WHY???

and even i myself don't have a reason to give you which some one would find convincing.i feel like
i am alone to face the challenges of life.and yes i am afraid of facing life and its challanges now, m not strong enough,m striving for a supportive hand...a pain relieving hug which acts like a stress killer, a kiss on the forehead which wishes good luck without raising a note to hear....a soft hand to make a mess of my already messed hairs......an emotion to care for me ,to love me without demanding anything....a voice to make me eat more even when i am filled already........eyes who always had tears for me whensoever i was leaving home...
i miss you like hell maa...where will i get this much now?...
i am lacking the strength ,i am lacking everything from me
i don't have the confidence to face the world and the challenges of life.
seems like it went with you.i am messed up with my life. i am messed up with my carrear.i am messed up with myself.

probably that's why i am sitting at this point of time with thousand thoughts in mind but without an answer to any of them

newly evolved "THE LANGUAGISM"

THERE IS SOMETHIN NEWLY EVOLVED(which infact is not new but is in bright light dese days)

called ""THE LANGUAGISM"

There was lot of drama on the first day of the new Maharashtra assembly today when MNS  (Maharashtra Navnirman Sena) legislators roughed up S P MLA, Abu Azmi for taking oath of office in Hindi Language. As soon as Abu Azmi started taking oath in Hindi Language, the 13 member strong MNS MLA’s rushed towards Azmi and took away the mike from him. The 13 MLA’s of the Maharashtra Navnirman Sena MNS on Monday created havoc in the Maharashtra assembly . Reportedly 4 of the MLA’s whos were responsible have been suspended. MNS legistalors shouted slogans, demanding that Abu should take the oath in Marathi Language only.

Buoyed by the impressive Assembly debut of his party, Raj had recently announced his legislators would ensure that all MLAs took oath in Marathi taking the politics of regional chauvnism straight to the Assembly. 

"If any MLA does not take oath in Marathi, the House will see what happens," Raj had threatened. Raj issued a reminder today, asking all 287 MLAs in the House to take oath in Marathi.

though Assembly acted tough and passed a resolution suspending four MNS members from the House for four years within hours after the chaos. The MLAs were also accused of misbehaving with a woman MLA.

now this was the whole actual drama

but seriously what is this goin on and dey call it "FOR THE PRIDE OF MARATHI"

but i remember sumone sayin "The talk of Marathi pride comes when someone stops anyone from taking oath in Marathi if they are doing so" but dat was never d case.

n dere is one follower of MNS n raj thakrey who says" his point is tht u shud respect all cultures, languages and religions to keep india united." and says "abu azmi just wanted an issue and was challenging marathi sentiments. cudnt he read just 4 lines in marathi ???

Ok i agree with his point but Hello! >>you are an indian first and dere r two things i wish to remind you my frn

---first---Hindi is National Language of India

---second---Indian Constitution allows to take Oath in any of the languages defined under constitution including any regional language and above all Hindi is an national and officail language of our country

But point is not that "whether Hindi or Marathi"..the point is actually 

--a respect for the nation

--a code of conduct being a representative

--law and order ,,discipline ....

and seriously they have got hell a lot of other things to solve for dere states nly ,,

terrorism,,illiteracy,,poverty,,,floods ,draughts,life of villages ,,,slums ,,,,slowdown,,,,diseases like polio n aids 

n list is endless actually

But do they actually care to give evn a single thought to these things a single time? ..do they debate on these things?...do they debate for findin solutions for these things?......do they debate how to fight against terrorism which is not just externaly,its internal evn?

do they care even ever?

No ,what they just care is regions devided by language ....marathi...hindi...southie...punjabii...bihari..n all

what they think about is region and caste n relegion barries ....

India is all scatterd now .......but we read in books a phrase for our land

"UNITY IN DIVERSITY".

They are just destroyin it .they are not protecting nythin no state no language no relegion but dey r just damaging our self unity which was standin tall till today in all diversities but seriously if all dese gonna continue den our unity will loose all its strength n wll rest in voilence ,hate,scaterrism .

and at the end of the day it will be a scattered INDIA

WE NEED TO LOOK UPON WHO IS AT FAULT OR WHO IS TO BE BLAMED

IS IT WE THE GENERAL PEOPLE OR THE SYSTEM

and i feel like they need to be dealt stronly with law so that it will be a msg for all others

and there needs to be QUALIFING CRITERIAS FOR THE PEOPLE WHO FILE FOR ELECTIONS TO REPRESENT WE THe PEOPLE 

AND SOMETHING LIKE CODE OF CONDUCT HAS TO BE THERE FOR THEM IN LAW WHICH THEY NEED TO LEARN

""WHAT DO YOU SAY?"

THE TERROR STRIKE........made us to think a lot

JAIPUR,banaraas,ahmedabad....delhi and now mumbai........AND THAT TOO OUR ECONOMY SYMBOLS..........Is there any place left for them to strike.They are striking everywhere and still then founding a new place everytime to hit new face of terror.Those fucking terrorists(sorry for foul words but they deserves such and even more actually) are killing our people,are capturing our places .

WHY?

WHY is this hell happening ?Is somebody gonna answer this question

Is somebody there in our leads who can stand up in front and can answer or can give reasons why the fuck took place even when we had the best of investigation agencies..................and moreover i read somewhere that it was already pridicted.

Why the shit happened  again?Even when we alredy had a lot of it already on our nations most secure and symbolic bulding or monument "The Parliament".Why did we had that again?

What our leads learned from that last time?

or Was hat not alarming enough for them?

Is Mr. Manmohan singh "our respectable prime minister" have anything to say abbout it accept the everytime lecture which i think they have in  there records and are transfering it to every next contender or pm.And they have for everytime is "THIS IS A FIGHT AGAINST TERRORISM AND WE HAD TO FIGHT IT TOGETHER.WE WILL NOT LET THEM ACHEIVE SUCCESS IN THERE GOALS.WE WILL DEFINATELY WILL AGAINST THEM.WE JUST NEED TO BE UNITED IN SUCH TIME" and all such crap.

Also I got a thought while writing this that why didn't a minister's kin or relative ever there in victims's.Why is its us only everytime?

Does anybody have any answer for that?Dont take it wrong..............just give it a thought ..............WHY IS IT SO ALWAYS.

AND PLEASE NO MORE POLOTICS ...............................ITS A NATIONS AND THERE PEOPLE'S APPEAL TO THERE LEADS...............................................................................................